It is the last of 2019. I live in a splendid home. Tasteful upscale and higher in the mountains than before. I am a lucky woman. After a trial by fire ,I can say I have been introduced to Organic Chemistry. Via a special program at the local college. I am a bit of a celebrity there, cutting new ground as an audit student in STEM coursework. This matters much in contrast because the aervage Durangoian will tell you they do NOT LIKE working that hard,(shocked a couple of them mentioning this) many of them are feeling a pinch economically and are thinking about persuing a GED . equvalency program (!). Im a little short in Caluclus classes and am obliged to repeat a semester or two ----but --- I perserve, and in the science program encouraged. People who are focused here are easier to deal with generally. I was unpleasantly unwelcome in the music program however...loaded with scholarships and empty chairs. hmm. My audition was massively turned down and in wr...
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A letter to " Dynah Deborah D" in explanation of my evoling life , frankly among the heathen. A portion of on going conversation about my purpose there. Celestea Deanes Dynah Deborah D It seems important to have time for this spirtual energy to settle . Living in the wilderness and being fairly home bound, I've noticed the seasons sunsets and sunrises the moon phases after a good while speak to a person internally. They are to be OBSERVED. There is an element of anticipation. And then reception , adjustment then an explanation. And then , alteration you become what ever arrives ...? Then a conclusion and level of release. That then in total is a CELEBRATION. There is a rthym to it . And less risk of being caught off balance when suddenly faced with something new, after the way is adopted . You can give yourself over to your rountine without it becoming dull. White folk call it a state of Zen. I have known some of them take up eastern...
An example of the Ruin of Edom: in the person of a Great but corrupt? Soul
The Decline of Esau Spiritual interpretation via a soul's near ruin "Mr. D" i have seen a general unraveling of the dominant culture. Rom eis falling im shocked to relise how fast. As my fortunes rise, and ease is offerred increasingly. I have never met so many drug addicts and slovenly sous. General rebellious folk, who are just now as adults meeting restrictions I have had to respect since childhood. Welcome to "the anti -jet Set" ala stronng delusion. One very attractive in a certtain way. Actually chemistry.A big presense and admittedly a natural leader! Horrified to step back and see--- 1) a racist 2) an unevolved morality 3) a person i n a personal hell, with no idea why 4) a chastened barbarian...? handsome vital and conflicted. And offends. Often. He has a flattering opinion of me as a feminine person---the most hes ever known. How could this be? Then I look about--- artless, plodding females abound. Some neat, some offen...
Background—Celestea Deanes I am the second of four children , from a middle class background in Chicago. I went to a notable high school in Chicago, Robert Lindblom High School , and graduated in 1978. An exploitation in the military damaged my health, and the following years of poor treatment via the VA medical system made it worse. I found solace in the arts... After joining a dance troupe ( associated with the South Side Community Arts Alliance) I travelled with them . Eventually , this wanderlust brought me to Albuquerque, New Mexico. And there, I benefited from a combination of community support. One spectacular place being the National Instituteof Flamenco (!) where for ten years, I immersed. The directors of that program are the Sandoval-Encienas family, who adopted me in my frequent debility. Another group of benefactors included the company of artist...
Careeer Statement 2019 the Furtherance of my Career —Celestea Deanes Of all things communication is a key to improvement . Isolation may be a requirement in the pursuit of wisdom , and knowledge a principle thing to pursue . There is a lot to be said for virtual reality , the internet and of course the library. Resources all , as a disabled person, a politically targeted person, a marginalized individual , I truly love those things, I do. But, for now —- I require the company of my kindred spirits. Durango is beautiful . But limited. However , GOLDEN cultural opportunities including nature, sports and native folk are here. Recieved love and respect as an elder from these young people! I also already have made history on campus as an enrollee in certain programs. Unfortunately , been victim via bias too, her...